I wrote this blog earlier when I was in emotional pain and very bitter.
Sorry that I haven't written for a while. A hurtful event happened in my life. It proved more false prophecies to me personally from Christians. Then I went to a Christian healing group for prayer. When I was there, I was met with insensitivity, control, and legalism. I stood up for myself and walked out. Yes, it was that bad of an experience.
This was on top of grief and trauma of seeing a loved one die. Later the leader of the group sent me an email and apologized for the others behavior and stated that she did not agree with them. This was the only Christian group that I had felt safe to confide in and pray with. Now I just have a few Christian friends that are mature enough to pray with.
Christianity in the USA, is a mess right now. Materialism, judging harshly, and legalism in many places, (not all thank G-d). It not what Jesus wanted. Jesus was Jewish after all and known for his compassion.
Thirty years ago in Christianity there were more instant and permanent healings. Now I see people struggling in the faith, getting sick, and dying. It has been discouraging. It is like a desert. There have been many prophecies of the big last and most powerful revival coming. Christians have prayed for this revival for decades. I remember sitting in service 30 years ago and agreeing in prayer.
Look at whats happening in Europe, our politics, and our nation being so divided with hate. We need G-d's hand of protection and peace. We don't need false prophecies and false church propaganda that insults our intelligence.
G-d has come to me through visions, dreams, and DNA tests to show me that I have Jewish heritage. It has been a strong and serious message. It is interesting that I have gone to the root of Christianity, Judaism and find more peace there. The temples that I have visited are places where it is acceptable and expected for a person to ask questions, instead of being manipulated and controlled to believe exactly the same without regard to a person's feelings.
So far I have had good and bad experiences with Jewish people. They are people like everyone else. The GOOD news is that I did find a temple to visit were it is OK to ask questions. I have an interest in listening to their intelligent and various viewpoints. At other temple wanted nothing to do with the Jewish Awakening or me.
When I asked questions at the churches that I had gone to, it was always with answers to manipulate to their teachings even when many of their answers insulted my intelligence and life experiences.
When I was young I tried and believed some teachings and/or prophecies. I saw and physically felt the supernatural power. Now I am older and see the results of this lifestyle. It hasn't matched what they promised me that's for sure. They even used scriptures etc. I can tell you one thing is that I really hate being lied to.
Due to Christian history, other religions, and wicked political leaders my family had to lie about our true identity. They didn't even tell me in this time. I don't blame my family, they had to keep us safe. My ancestors had to continually live an active lie. Going to the Catholic church, pretending to be the best Catholic to not blow their cover. To convert to whatever religion to survive. They were still Jewish inside and G-d has still counted us as Jews. G-d has kept track of the generations.
Now G-d has come to the lost Jews. The grandsons and granddaughters of these crypto Jews and showing them their true identity. Dr. Dell Sanchez's sister Rivka stated that, "Our blood shouts!" That is what is happening, our blood shouts to us what our true identity is. It doesn't matter your religion, you may say you are a Christian and believe in Jesus. Look at me! I have prayed with my pastors, I have cast out demons, laid hands on the sick, I have the Christian Gifts of the Holy Spirit, but I am still effected as a Jew by this strong and powerful Jewish Awakening! Its not a choice, its not in my mind, its not pride, its not just disappointment, its a move of G-d that is stronger and bigger than I can possibly understand. I believe its a sign the Messiah is coming and I hope soon.
I will be lighting the Shabbat candles tonight as my (Lutheran) grandmother secretly did. Jews and crypto Jews will be lighting candles in faith to G-d for more light in the world and peace in Jerusalem.
P.S. this app doesn't take my edits well, including grammatical errors!